no one else.. but YOU..

Wishfull thinking.

2011-05-19T13:32:00.003+08:00

I WISH..

I got a flawless skin. NO bopengs. NO pimples. NOTHING.

I WISH..

They'll STOP saying local is expensive.

(yes, they even dont recommend us, the locals to do overtime frequently coz we are expensive)

I WISH..

I can knock some sense to someone.

Its really annoying when 'A' is so faithful (friendship wise) to 'B' while 'B' never aprreciate 'A'.

i'll just pray to god that one day he'll know the truth.

I WISH..

I found a VALID blank cheuque and get whateva i want.

I WISH..

To see the old him. i really miss the old him.

I WISH..

and i wish..

and then i realised..

its IMPOSSIBLE.

So, don't go for the impossible.

*selidik sblm menyerang*

Boooo!!!

2011-03-19T17:16:00.007+08:00

Heyya! It's been a while since i drop by here. Life is pretty much good lately. Alhamdulillah. What i've been busy troughout my absent here? Well nothing much actually.

Been busy with boyfriend, another shorty, baby Bruno (confident per bebual?).

Busy taking pics in the (most girl's fav spot) TOILET at my work place.

singing and singing..

Endless wedding event -.- ~.~

busy with my becok mak nenek..

and.. NaNalo!!

Life is just like a dark chocolate cake with sprinkles of chocolate rainbows on top.
No matter how colourful my life is, somehow, at certain point of our life, there's always a taste of bitter on it.

To stay positive and ignoring unnecessary stuff is really hard but hey! im trying!
Sometimes i just feel sick and tired of everything coz the fact is, i can't stop people from talking/thinking bad about me.

i CANT STOP people from thinking i'm smocking just because my lips is dark.

i CANT STOP people from assuming im attached with (insert name). I swear, i received a lot of names. Sadly no Bruno's name so far :(
The fact is i've been single since 22nd, November, 2010!

i CANT STOP people from thinking i had a 'short gun' with a kid when the fact is that kid is my niece.

i CANT STOP to whoever think i am at fault when you people only manage to hear only from ONE SIDE of the story when the fact is, doesn't mean i'm holding a gun i am at fault. Get to hear both sides of story then you CAN judge.

I just simply don't have the power to STOP EVERYTHING hence i keep reminding myself to stay positive. Let them think/say what they want. Im trying. i can do it. JIA YOU!

*brunoSars*

All She Knows

2011-02-16T18:59:00.004+08:00

I definitely can sing better.

i don't bother to re-record *giggles*

i love this songs so much.

why? i'll tell you why.

I AM THE GIRL IN THIS SONG.

Lyrics

Once again you're home alone

Tears running from your eyes

And I'm on the outside

Knowing that you're all I want

But I can't do anything

I'm so helpless baby

Everyday same old things

So used to feelin pain

Never had real love before

And it ain't her fault

She knows better but

She can't help it , Wanna tell her But would that be selfish

How do you heal, A heart that can't feel, it's broken

His love is all she knows, all she knows, all she knows

You've been livin this way so long

You don't know the differece

And it's killing me

Cause you can have so much more I'm the one your looking for

But you close your eyes on me So you still can't see

Everyday same old things

So used to feelin pain Never had real love before

And it ain't her fault

She knows better but She can't help it

Wanna tell her But would that be selfish

How do you heal A heart that can't feel, it's broken

His love is all she knows, all she knows, all she knows

All she knows is the pain In the corner of an empty home

She's still comfortable I want her to know

It can be better than this I can't pretend

Wish we were more than friends

She knows better but She can't help it

Wanna tell her But would that be selfish

How do you heal A heart that can't feel, it's broken

His love is all she knows, all she knows, all she knows

*i keep my words*

Ups and Down of 2010

2011-01-15T19:48:00.005+08:00

It's a brand new year (well not really 'new' fatin. it's already 15th of January).
2010 is a little hard on me. Did i just mention little??
Hell no! 2010 been really really super duper extremely hard on me :(

I start 2010 quite well. Everything got haywire when i was on my final year, final semester in school.

This is when i decided to work once a week as a cashier at Ikea because i think final year projects really pressure me a lot. An unforgettable/weird/unbelievable things happen at work. Right after I'm done with my final year project, i was attached to a landscape engineering company for my Industrial Attachment Program. That's when i quit my job coz according to them, i am not allowed to request for 4 months off days.

After that life was good. Not until during fasting month. It was really a pressure for me. Jobless, staying at home and helping out mom handling the kids. Non stop personal problems. It goes on and on. Three years plus of a relationship end just like that unexpectedly.

Well life is full of unexpected things huh?

Towards the end of November,that's when i enjoyed life with no one to depend on unlike three years ago. Things goes on the way i want it to be. 24th November, that's when i officially graduated from Interior Design and Landscape.

GOODBYE BCA Academy. like finally?? Ever since i graduated, i'm still jobless though.

So basically that was the summary of what has been happening throughout the whole year of 2010.

The starts of 2011 been hell to me. Cili padi used to say this to me sometime ago,"Guys being rejected have their ego smacked down as well.. They will end up do stupid things in an attempt to get over with the damage, which doesn't work the way they think..."

Now i understood clearly why this thing happened. When ego smacked down, whatever things they've UNDERSTOOD and AGREED on, they'll bring up the matter again and suddenly they'll say they DON'T UNDERSTAND why and DISAGREE with it. Though this is my second time with unsuccessful relationship, this is my first time having family involves.

Things getting better now. I've been in my own world lately. It's a great feeling.

It's just that lately i got comments about my hair a lot!!!

"Why your hair like never grow?"

"Did you trim your hair?"

For goodness sake i didn't do anything to my hair. I've made a promise to kedingz and my bestie; Rafi to keep my hair long. As much as i feel woman with short hair is vouge, well promise is still a promise.

So this is me with my shortest hair 1.5 years ago.

this is my recent pics (i took this yesterday ok!!)

My hair did grow right...??? Sigh.

*i love bruno mars*

One day

2010-12-18T21:07:00.002+08:00

Sorry no pics of my current condition of bed rooms and living rooms.

To those who has been to my house, im very sure u guys can see the big differents.

Pictures is render trough sketchup. Hence BAD quality.

3 easy steps to HUGE eyes!

2010-11-26T14:43:00.005+08:00

First thing first i wanna thanx Peiyi for the compliments. During my graduation day i actually feel a bit paisey coz i did realise Jermel's sis; Peiyi, like observing something on my face secretly. So i thought she's looking at my bad complexion.

Until i saw what u can see below.. damn i really wronged her! lol :p

Thanx to that, here i am wanna share some tips to make your eyes looks larger!

There's only 3 easy steps!

1. CURL YOUR LASHES

2. CONTACT LENSE

3. WHITE PENCIL LINER

Curl and curl your lashes. If u still not satisfied with it, use fake lashes! It helps to open up your eyes.. O_O

I purposely took out my lense on my left eye. can u see the differents?

Next! use white pencil liner and line it on your water line.

What is water line? water line is right above the lower eyelash.

And the result is what u can see above.

can u see it??

Barbie dolls eyes O_o

Have fun trying!

*hidop didunia jgn cari kebencian org*

How to shape your eyebrow.

2010-11-19T23:00:00.008+08:00

HELLO GUYS!! I've received a lots n lots of request via facebook, twitter, email and formspring on how to shape eyebrow. Like finally now i got the time to show you how.

Here we go! Ouh! u need a WHITE pencil liner for this!

I don't practice myself trimming my eyebrow during 'the time of the month' which is roughly for a week. Result, very bushy *faint* Lucky im not that hairy type *giggles*

Mark a point by putting a WHITE pencil liner as shown above.

the result will be like what you can see below:

Easy?? Ok next!

Draw a guideline like what u can see above.

Trim/cut/plug the hair within and beyond the white guideline.

Psst! Did you know that i'm such a looser that i'm afraid of plugging my eyebrow?? Yeah shame on me! So much of being a 'make-up artist'!

I really got ZERO tolerance on pain. Seriously, no joke!

When you are done, clean away your eyebrow.

Re-define your brows using brown eyebrow pencil like what u can see above.

Re-define your line again.

Fill in your brows. Note, only 3/4 of your brows. Leave the inner part of your brows empty.

Brushed to the inner part of your brows.

TADAAA...!!! its done! easy?nope?

Don't you guys worry coz it took me freaking ONE YEAR to master drawing a perfect eyebrow. Practice make perfect =)

Tips: The thinner your eyebrow is, the older u'll look =)

*i miss you*

Lil Miss Sueheldarose

2010-11-08T12:27:00.009+08:00

So, my dear fren Su'aidah aka Sueheldarose aka Sue need help to paint her face for an outdoor photoshoot. This is my first time having a make-up call as early as 8am. Yes freaking early huh?

As usual, so far im always punctual and do the waitting hehe :p

Meeting point is at Chinatown mrt station. For goodness sake i've got no idea why the hell i got the STRONG feeling i need to take bus service no: 180 to our destination.

Even mom, kak ogy and kedingz trying very hard to convince me that 190 is the right bus that heading to chinatown.

Later on then i realised that 180 heading to CHINESE GARDEN. So im just confusing myself between Chinese Garden and Chinatown! Wth right? i knw!

It was fun working with Jamaluddin; the photographer from
Jyn 13th Design Services <----like the page on facebook now!

* All photographs are copyright of www.jyn13th.com. Unauthorised duplication, downloading or usage of photographs without permission from www.jyn13th.com, are strictly prohibited. If you wish to use any of these images, please contact us at enquiries@jyn13th.com. *

Told you my cheeks getting fatter n fatter huh? Anytime can explode!

bohooo! =(

*i miss those time*

Built-in Wardrobe

2010-10-26T00:00:00.002+08:00

Ahaa! Finally we gonna do something with one of the room!

The title of this post says it all right??

We went to the renovation office and told them what we planning to do.

Just on the first visit, we had a hard time explaining what we want and so clever me who brought along my lappy, show them what i've done like the pic below and everything goes smoothly. On our 2nd visits, we discussed more on the quotation and choosing of materials!

Sadly i end up didnt choose glossy white and red finishing for my wardrobe.

Simply because i got the feelings the white colour will turn out yellowish though white will make my room looks more spacious. Sigh.

Like common! this is buit-in wardrobe. Once it is built and stick to the wall, we can't do anything to it right? haha So i choose a black glossy with flowery patterns (non-glossy).

We stick to the red glossy finishing still. I just love red people!

Ouh! i'm too ashamed to post the current pic of my room now. Too haywired!
*imagine*
Currently there's TWO different pattern with different colour of wardrobe, a bed and TWO desktop!! (this is a result having a dad who do freelance video editting. He really need that a lot of desktop) Sigh.

Hopping that my room will be more or less like this, provided dad move his own desktop to his room and kak ogy and the rest has move out.

mean time. Dream on.

*don't ask the whole world for goodness sake*

Simple

2010-10-03T23:13:00.003+08:00

Today was tiring day. Damn shagged. We got 3 wedding invitations and 2 open house.

Usually I'll put a little eyeshadow to wedding event.

Daily makeup i can make do without eyeshadow.

Black is always an option when you are in rush/totally can't think.

Be it in choosing your clothing/accessories/eyeshadow etc.

Talking about black eyeshadow i believe u guys will have that mindset of "Dramatic".

Actually with black eyeshadow u can make it as simple as what u can see below!

And don't forget to put a little bit of black eyeshadow on your lower lash line at the outer part of your eye =)

Ouh! light shade on the inner corner of your eyes to make it looks larger.

MONDAY IS HERE =(

Goodbye weekends.

Hello busy weekday! Bleargh!

*just what the hell is wrong with you today??*

Daily Makeup

2010-10-01T20:58:00.003+08:00

I used to love super thick/heavy makeup with dramatic eyeshadow.

Lately im just getting lazier n lazier n lazier n lazier.. bahaha!!

ok stop it.

For sure i can't leave the house without drawing my eyebrow and eyeliner.

I just feel naked without 'them'.

Ouh! nude lipstic depends on my mood. Coz i'm not the type who touch up her makeups every few minutes! Nude colour is a must to look simple.

Yeah raya da abes!! That's means i got a green light to hunt for a job!

This is what i'v been waitting for.

im a happy happy gal!! =D

*38th months*

Peack-Chers!

2010-09-19T20:07:00.004+08:00

Have u guys uploaded at least a photo album of Raya? Yes? me? No! Kinda lazy. All i do is just wait for people to tagg or self-share.

So let this be the first time of me uploading raya pics here at blogspot. I mean nonsensical pics of us =)

*no smocking!!*

Eid Mubarak

2010-09-13T19:58:00.002+08:00

Wishing everyone, be it from facebook, blogger and twitter account,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN.

After all we are just human beings who never fail to make mistakes.

Life has been preety much mundane lately.

Things getting from bad to worst. I need more strength to go through all this shits that has been happening. I just hope she keep her words.

*blessed*

Eyebrow

2010-08-31T22:15:00.005+08:00

"Pardon me to say this. I'm not trying to be racist but this is a fact. Malays got the most ugliest eyebrow with super thin and high arc"

"Ouh that one only minah2 got that kind of brows"

"Precisely. If u realise, majority of the Indians got a nicely shaped eyebrows"

Above is a convo between my makeup trainer and us (the students) during our 'shaping eyebrow' lesson. I couldn't agree more to her statement. Don't u agree too??

Why is thin eyebrow ugly?? thin eyebrow really makes u look far way older than your actual age. While a little thicker (not too much) makes u look younger. So teenagers out there especially. Why did you choose to look older when you can look younger??

Therefore, i edit the pic below for you guys to see the difference having a thin eyebrow. The model ofcz is me lar :p cz i also wanna see how i look like with thin eyebrow gheeez!!

okay dokey.. this is usual shape of my eyebrow.

So i edit this using photoshop. Ouhhhaammgeee... i look pretty ugly in this. what do u think??

Ever wonder how people with no eyebrow looks like??

ouh man! they look super old and sick!

What are you waiting for ladies. Don't keep THIN eyebrow ;)

*37th month*

What??

2010-08-20T12:59:00.004+08:00

To those who can access to my twitter/fb. I'm pretty much sure, u guys are tired of reading updates regarding Irah, Nana and Syastra. I update about them like no body bussiness rite??

Due to that i'm not shocked if u mistook them as my daughters. BAH!!

Watsmore with Irah calling me Mummy?? Nyeahaha im just a 'fake' mother to her u guys.

Sometimes it's funny people called u hot momma! Thanx a lot for calling me hot *blushed*

Some handsome2 mat out there also change mind of getting a number from me.

"alamak baru nak mintak nombor. budak tu panggil dia mummy lar"

Phew! Well im super shy type.

Not only that i also received sacarstic, hurting comments from people who thought im aldy with a children at this age! Just a few days ago, i went shopping at ntuc with irah and nana. Overheard a convo by two malay makcik kepo. The word 'shortgun' can be clearly heard.

Pffttt!!! Even if it's really a shortgun that makcik kpo shldn't have been straight forward lar.. rite?

My little mak nenek Irah. This is her real mother ;)

This is Syastra and Natriana's real mom and dad. Sorry Rafi muka kau sungguh candid kat sini. Now u get the idea why Nana's face very the cheenoneh??

*5 hours!!! *

Congrats!

2010-08-02T21:45:00.004+08:00

Ahah! We turned 3 years!

Psst! I feel a great of achievement when i manage to surprise him with the cupcakes above!

For more pics pls click the link below!

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=183811&id=654027005&l=4dea9e015f

Congrats to my dear friend Amalina!

Unforgettable moment: Just when i was about to start my makeup she laugh. Wait no. She giggles. She told me she can't believe she's gonna get engage and she can't believe I AM the one doing the makeup for her. LOL. Life.

*jealous*

Little Monchster!!

2010-07-26T15:29:00.003+08:00

Well basically im uploading cute videos of the little monster Nana here instead of fb just bcz i dont wanna flood all her video there. so enjoy!

It has been a week i realised she found a new habit of rubbing her lashes before she finally doze off! Seriously ape steam buat mcm tu?

khusyuk!

*1st love story*

The kecoh-ness of making a cake

2010-07-13T21:21:00.005+08:00

Last Friday, aunt need help from me to put wordings on the cake that a friend of my cousin ordered. According to the client needs, she want it the way like how it looks at the picture below. Just covered with chocolate at the sides of the marble cake.

After knowing cousin want me to put the wordings using a gel i was like WHAT?? A pipping gel?? on a dark wrinkle surface?? i told them the gel is transparent, with dark surface, it'll just defeat the purpose of putting the wordings.

And so! the picture above is the result! the gel is not dark enough. After all it is transparent right? I got no choice but to just follow the flow. Suggest a cream for the wordings they just won't listen to me saying the cream will melt yada.. yada.. yada.. i was like wateva! After seeing with her own eyes that the gel didn't do much justice, cousin whant me to put chocolate rice on the gell. Which i dont agree too. End up the surface is so messy.

We have no choice but to cover the whole surface after we witness the messy-ness.

Lucky thing, cousin's client ok with it.

Picture above is the end result! Yeah! the words is a little slanted. My bad.

The two picture above is the 'agar-agar' cousin make for her client. cute rite??

*we turning 3 years real soon =)*

Photoshoot and makeup service

2010-07-08T21:36:00.003+08:00

Do i need to say more? ;)

*tell me more*

To whom it may concern

2010-06-23T14:19:00.006+08:00

I've been wanting to blog about this a few weeks back. Since im kinda free now, as u can see the pic above, some stranger actually tweet to me way before i change my mind on making my tweets private. It goes like this:

"Hi.im just wondering y u got dat such plain face w/o thick makeup?Makeup artist shldn't be like u..Put more thick makeup!"

Before i answer this. To YOU, i think u should have basic maners in you. That's not the way to ask question =) Do u need some help in basic maners coz im willing to help u. Free of charge =)

And for your info.....I AM THE TYPE WHO.....:

Did put on thick makeup to cover my acne scar. I didnt use foundation. i use CONCEALOR all over my face. Basic thing about makeup (in case u don't know) : concealor is far way thicker than foundation.
Rarely use eyeshadow due to my oily skin which spoil the eye makeup after awhile. I avoid too much shading too coz it looks really fake. Nice in pics tho.
There's this saying in Malay "Selalu sangat makeup nanti kawin takde seri" (i am pretty much sure u are malay so im not gonna translate this)
Don't like to spend too much time on makeup. I'd rather spend my time on hair seriously.
Prefers thick makeup than OVER makeup.

The whole idea is i just wanna look natural. I think u don't know the difference between 'thick' makeup and 'over' makeup. To top it all.. who are you to instuct me this and that? you are completely a stranger to me. So mind your own bussiness ok gal??

Dont forget to thank me for not letting the public see your tweeter's username and display pic tho i've block u.

*beach!*

Love story

2010-06-15T20:58:00.007+08:00

I’ve never imagine having a complicated love story like those in drama. I love watching those entire drama mama scene. Never ever I believe it will happen to me.

Mom once says this, ”You can never forget your first true love. It is so unforgettable that even when you are hungry, when you happen to bump onto him, you don’t feel hungry anymore”

I met my first love 7 years ago. Yes, we are too young back then. We had a relationship around 3 years. Jealousy, hot tempered. Things got haywire and we end our relationship right after my O’s.

I’m hoping that this separation will somehow give both of us some time to think deeply of our mistakes and allow ourselves to have some time alone. During our separation we still catch up with each other. Somehow, after some time, I got news he got someone special. Later on i heard they got married.

God knows how I feel at that upon of time. I’d rather had someone crushed my heart literally than an action of person that crushed my heart. Ego starts to grow in me. If he can have someone to replace me, so do I. Result, I accept a guy (now my current bf).
So to those ex-colleagues who think I got feelings towards Kedingz you are simply WRONG. I’ve never ever got that feeling towards him. In fact I hate him. I cursed him each time he help me out at counter. Well that’s me. When I hate that someone, I won’t show it. It is just that ego feeling came just nice when he sound me to be his girlfriend.

Day after day, weeks after week... I start to fall in love with kedingz. I finally found out that he is much better. Ever since the first love married, I stop contacting him. First, he’s officially married with kids. Second, His wife doesn’t want him to have anything to do with me. So he continues his life with his wife and I continue my life with my new found love.

A few years later, I don’t know and I can’t imagine how it happens. God brought US together again. He came over to my house, with his wife and kiddoz. Kedingz was there too at that upon of time. That is when I really understand whatever my mom has mentioned above. My new found love is right beside me and my heart beat so fast looking at the first love. Meeting him just make my day for no reason.

When he got divorce a few months later, that’s when our relationship gets closer. This is the part where both of us regret about the past. It’s too late to even think about it. For sure this is the starting of my dilemma.

Now god test me by sending two men into my life. It’s really tough. The first love? Or the new found love?
For sure I’ve made my decision. To deliver the answer?? The hardest thing I’ve done in my whole life so far. Definitely I’m hurting either one’s feeling =(
Hope with this decision, I can still have both, one as my future husband and one as my best buddy/soul mate.

So the whole idea is, i am too amazed on how God really arrange our destiny. Being separated, meet again, dillema and so on..

*Kedingz*

Uncle's VAN

2010-05-27T11:41:00.005+08:00

Last Sunday, a splendid day with family. Head to Jurong Port (if i'm not wrong) to order stuff for our catering early June. Uncles and cousins tagg along too. We went to Jurong by van! Ouh! Kedingz decided to tagg us too since there's no slot for him to work on that day =)

So how can i not be happy going out with family and bf??

After that head to Telok Kurau to have our late lunch.

I can't remember the restaurant name but for sure the restaurant sells only yong tau fu.

The food was superb! Even the sauce and chili is far way better than the one at Banquet. Trust me.

After lunch, head to Expo. Nothing much there provided u are planning to get married. Even the mini show was boring. Anita Serawak is one of the invited artist. I dont like her hair. Don't really fancy her by the way.

Urgh! put that aside.. so do u have any idea whats going on in my uncles van??

Long journey plus one super hyper active baby in it??

take a look at the pics below:

Baby can drink gassy drinks right bibik??

Gotcha!! see!! the can drink still not open yet bibik!! *show funny face*

Look!! That is cousin; Abg Muhit's van =) Its funny when uncle and cousin compete each other on the road! sadly my uncle always win! geezz!!

This naughty girl supposed to sit at the front with my aunty. Don't know whats wrong with her on that day she keep crying wanna sit at the back with us!

Wohoo! if u realised, i've cut my hair again! Well basically just wanna make the back and front hair levels so i can grow my hair long =)

Omg nana! dont worry people, she's not doing a blow job.

Hah! she actually digging and searching for used tissue that i've hide it under my thigh! lol.

Muka tak perlu ONE

Muka tak perlu TWO

Just cant keep still despite feeling super sleepy and sweating like a pig on a hot hot weather!

Playing with the bag. Once she manage to detach it, she clap her hand and say 'yeah!!'

At Expo

Finally she surrender.

FINALLY!!
Guess what she woke up half an hour later with the fresh face, and the super hyper active spirit!
-.-
So who's tired at the end of the story??
US!!
It's so tirring handling this naughty NANA.
Still we love u lots! =)

*i've made my choice but cant help it to feel that dilemma*

Casual Outdoor Photoshoot!

2010-05-20T11:54:00.005+08:00

So! On a sunny Sunday afternoon, off we go to my used-to-be my dad's kampung; Race Course.

Get Marr to be my model. She's very fun and easy to work with. Just show her what we want and she'll do it.

Ouh one thing i realised. When she saw me holding the fake lashes she laugh in a manja way, very softly. I know she's trying to say "WHAT?? FAKE LASHES??"

The next moment during photo shoot, when my dad want her to pose ala-ala ~~American~~ BCA Next Top Model, she'll laugh again softly (this time more to horse laugh) before she finally do the pose.

As for her makeup, i decided to do it very simple as Marr already got the natural beauty to begin with.

Thanx once again Marr for making your time posing under the hot sun with smelly horse smell huhuhu ;)

for more pictures of pretty Marr go here:

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=165230&id=654027005&l=5c01a575e3

to those who are interested on having a casual outdoor/studio photo shoot u may email me at fatin_atiqah@hotmail.com =)

*i believe i can fly........*

Be more daring

2010-05-12T10:46:00.003+08:00

It is my job as a freelance makeup artist to fulfill my clients need.

Whether they want it to be simple or dramatic makeup etc.

I can say 9 out of 10 clients is very fussy. I really appreciate it if my client is fussy. When they tell me they don't want this, don't want that, it just make my job easier in a way i don't have to think much and just follow the flow.

On top of that, i realised most ladies out there, is so scared of thick makeup. i just want u to stop saying NO to thick eyeliner, thick eye shadow etc because this thick makeup really change your looks.

I am sure u want people to give compliment like "omg! u look so different, you are damn pretty.." right??

Look at the pic above. This is a zoom-in pics to show u guys how THICK lower liner on the lower eyelid of her eye. This is the thickness i put on onto my clients too. Sometimes thicker.

I got feedback saying the eyeliner cause their eyes looks like Panda.

Well basically i got my own reason. Usually i'll explain to my clients that thick liners helps to 'pop' out more on their eyes. Furthermore, lightings and camrea flashes and sunlight (for outdoor photo shoot) take away half of your makeup.

Not counting stage makeup. Usually on stage there is a lots n alots of lightings and spot light. This lighting take away almost all of your makeup. That's why if u realised, artist, dancers etc put on double or maybe triple thick makeup.

at the end of the day, after explaining, if client still wanna stick to their choice i'll fulfill it =)

This is the result of having thick liners. Nice isnt it?

Well ofcz with thin liners like the pic above is so not suitable for especially outdoor photo shoot, engagement and weddings. Provided you are taking pics using camera phone with not that strong flash/lighting =)

So girls out there.. open up your mind.. experience the wonders of makeup for a fresh and different look ;)

click the link below and browse trough the album hopefully u get what i mean:

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=153983&id=654027005&l=fe4b2f93ad

*if i aint got u*

The Zainal Abidins

2010-04-22T13:28:00.008+08:00

Last weekend, had a great time with kedingz's family.

BBQ-ing at this chalet (I'm bad at memorising names of places) somewhere at Pasir Ris.

It's their first time having this kind of activity.

So.. basically i did nothing there but just slacking. Really. I don't know why i feel so tired and restless. Even when the rest go swimming, which is my favourite sports activity, all i did is just slack at the living room, watched kedingz play game, then watched Hindi movie.. then watched them preparing the BBQ stuff. Yes all i do is just watch here and there.

Towards the end of the day, i start to feel a slight headache. As the day getting darker, the pain getting more and more intense. Just when the BBQ food is ready, i lost all my appetite. Haiz.. i never say no to food. Infact i'm a BIG eater!

Around 9 plus, i cant stand it any longer. Kedingz touch my forehead to feel my body tempreature. Not good. There i go end my day and reach home arnd 10+.

So, take a look at the pictures below. Let me introduce you the Zainal Abidinsssss ;)

hah! No, im not a soccer player. Dad bought this for me. I don't really like jersey cos of the material. Make me sweat all time. Since dad bougth for me this couple years ago, i only wear it once. For the sake of showing him that i did treasure the jersey he bought for me... so yeah.. anyways, go BBQ no need to be pretty2 right??lol haha.

Please don't be mistaken. That bike is not his. It belongs to kedingz's bro's girlfriend =)

For sure, the red colour one belongs to Kedingz's 2nd sis.

Before the fruits being cut..........

Keding'z mom: You eat papaya?

Me: No.

Kedingz 2nd sis: Honey dew?Water melon??

Me: No. I dont like the taste.

Kedingz: Good! those that they just mention, which u don't eat, is what we have now in the fridge haha!!

OK im very fussy when it comes too eating. When it come to fruit, i love those sour kind of fruits. Strawberry, Manggo, Guava, Pineapple, Greenapple etc.

Cerewet kan?

This is Kedingz's bro. The 5th one =) His nicks is AJO. He gives in a lot to his smaller bother. I sallute his patience.

Ahahahaha!! this is Mr. Zainal Abidin. Kedingz's father =D

The small kid at the centre is NAZ aka Baby. He's the 6th =) I don't have the close up pictures of him, but trust my eyes, he's just a photocopy of Kedingz. haha.

This guy here doing the BBQ is Kedingz's older brother, Epul. He's the 3rd.

the spread of food...yummy..

IBU! Kedingz's mother =)

The guy on the front left is Kedingz's bro-in-law; Faz. He belongs to Kedingz's 2nd sis. The one on the right is Kedingz's 1st sister; Murni aka Adang. I think i miss out her husband pic, Edwin. Sorry!

Haa.. This is my ex-colleagues; Hidayah. We used to work together at Ikea. She is Kedingz's older bro's gf. Well that's how she and me met our boyfriend. thanks to IKEA heee =D

This is Irfah, Kedingz 2nd sister =D

I really really had a great time there ;)

*i miss kedingz =(*

Formspring ME!

2010-04-14T22:34:00.003+08:00

This are questions given to me (some totally stranger to me & ofcz some of it i knew who the person is) so far.

1. do eu think eu are pretty?
Nope. i am ungly monster. The fact that i depend too much on makeup to make myself appears better. Note, not pretty but better.

2. Are eu crazy?
yes i am..! lol

3. Are you into nude make-up?
Ouh YES. It's a must. Maybe that's the reason why someone question me bout me not over-makeup. (u can find the qnt somewhere below)

4.have you spent your time with your sister??
yeah. everyday at home??

5.im enrique ! u are . fatin huh ? by emeriqueqa
hello.. i know u are EMILIA KASSIM. look! ur name appears bellow this qnt!

6.how do u define emilia ? by emeriqueqa
She's cute, always happy go lucky laugh here and there. Never once i saw her in a bad mood. (well pls pray that i'll get to see it) She's very good in ART back then in secondary school life. She got a nice voice too! Other then painting onto papers.. She's just like me, love painting people's face too =) that's make US bestfriend =D

7.du you know that i love you ? by emeriqueqa
hahaha love me as a besties can.. other defination of love... hell NO.. ;)

8.can i get to know you ? LOL!
ahaha and you ar???

9. I'm aware that you are a freelance makeup artist. One thing I like about you is that you didnt over-makeup. I've met you several time outside.
u did?? Did u say hi?? So where is the qnt??? (looks like I'm the one asking you qnt heh!)anyways... I did put on thick makeup to cover my acne scars. It is just that I rarely use eyeshadow..lipstick..mascara. BUT eyeliner is a must. Maybe that's the reason why u think I didnt over-makeup.but I do over makeup on special occasion like my birthday, wedding event , hari raya.. Etc :)

10. Do you have any scars on your body? If so, how'd you get them?
I do. I got really sensitive skin. Too much dust and my while body will itchy. I got the habbit of scratching like no body bussiness. Thank god there's whitening lotion!

11. how big is your boobs??
haha lol. Ofcz I can't ans this qnt but I am quite satisfied with the size :)

12. What must yr bf dp to make you go "awww"
Ermmm... Can rephrase your sentence again?? I don't get it sorry.... :S

13. I think your boyfriend is so cute! No offence pls. This is just an opinion *winks* how long both of you been together??
ahahaa.... Yeah.. A lot of people say that too. I don't find him cute though ooops! We've been together for 32 months alhamdulillah.. Am still trying to get to knw each other better.

14. Is ikea the only job u had??
erm.. By right yes.. By left.. Since i was in pri 5 I sang on wedding event on weekends. I got paid for that. So...... Ya! U get wat I'm trying to say??

15. Bsk klua?
hmmm... No plan.. -.-

16. zzzzzz.... so bath in the rain ltr ah? -_-!!
-_- haiyah...!

17. so are u going to take a bike ride even if its raining so heavily??haha
ahahah!! i knw hu u r!! NO CHOICE!! still taking the bike :(

18. wad is the 1st thing u do when clock strikes 5.30pm ltr!?! haha
pack my stuff and CHIOW!! hahah!!

19. if u had a choice...wud u get a red or a green shoe? and why?
RED pls.. i love RED.. one of my fav colour ;)

20. lets see...isit raining on your side?
soon :( pls pray that it'll not rain coz bf fetching me..... :S

21. Are u that short? since ur nicks is "shorty......."?
:O yup! im only 155cm tall :S

22. how much do u spend during a working day?
sometimes not at all coz i bring food from home. otherwise $5 per day?? yup!

23. where is ur company?
Near Bugis =)

24. are you attached?
Yes! =D

25. what am i suppose to eat today??
erm......... ban mien?? hahaah! :p

26. WHERE ARE U GG AFTER WORK?
meeting my Ikea peeps for so called reunion dinner heh ;)

27. DO YOU HAVE COMPANY DINNER?
sadly no.... :(

28. WHAT DID U EAT FOR LUNCH ??
Double Cheese Burger PLAIN.......... =)

So u can see how stupid/lame/uncensored/usefull question i've got??

Just go here: http://www.formspring.me/shortyfartyn

or simply enter your question at the right side of this page =)

* i love today. just u and me *

Dinner with Ikea peeps

2010-04-11T22:21:00.004+08:00

Last friday, had a reunion dinner with the Ikea peeps!

Damn! miss them so much. The moment i saw them it just reminds me the time we work our ass together serving customer.

Talking/joking while serving customer...

We met at at Chua Chu Kang mrt.

Walk to cck's makan place at cck park!

We decided to have an ala cart instead of buying the one in a package.

So! wat did i order?? biasa jgk.. Tom Yam Soup! whatever it is the Tom Yum Soup at ABC Cofeeshop is the best!

Pics below.. Enjoy =)

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Gonna miss you Kedingz :(
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At times u care too much.
21 years old adult.
I'm aint no kid anymore.

*too much! :(*

Branded

2010-04-10T19:05:00.004+08:00

HALLO HALLO!!

Today supposed to be dating day with kedingz, but i just feel like staying at home.

Reasons?? First i'm PMS-ing. Second, i miss watching Hindi movie both at TV2 and Central!!!

So yeah we date at home then lol... Wait2 don't worry mom and dad at home too.

We are good couples heheh :p

While i watched my Hindi movie, Kedingz play some games as usual. He's not interested in hindi movie AT ALL!

Look at the pic below. Can u read the brand of my spec??

Before that, let me tell you, i'm not a person who go for a brand. Really, all my stuff from head to toe is brand-less bah! BUT!! After Kedingz says something sounds like this:

"Cermin mata design da lawa-lawa brand nama LANBAO!!" siak!

Kedingz, for goodness sake this spectacle cost you $200 despite the very siak brand name. I'm soooo gonna do something to it. Paint?marker? hahah

ouh if u readers got any qnt to ask me.. its ok if its a stupid qnt, regarding makeup etc.. just fill in your qnt at the right side of this page =) i'll ans it as soon as possible =)

You may go here: http://www.formspring.me/shortyfartyn to see if i've answer your question =)

*u make smile again*

Pretty Ladies ;)

2010-04-07T11:08:00.006+08:00

Hi everyone!

Well lately my fingers start to be very itchy. So itchy that i wanna 'paint' people's face.

Since last year, i've been tied up with final year project. Now that everything has come to an end, other than having attachment now.. so.. called the girls who i've made appointment months and months ago! Yes! that was pretty long time ago!

Below is Adilah, my secondary school mate.

She's a little tomboy (well a bit only).

I must say it was tough to beautify her face. First, She requested not to shave her eyebrow.

Second, her skin tone is a bit dark and im running out of dark colours.

She got a flawless complexion tho. Not even a single pimples, easy for me to blend everything.

Next, called Nuraisah to be my model. She's my ex-colleagues.

It's so fun working with her. She keep still, she's not fussy.. She work well with the photographer (which is my dad). Not stiff infront of the camera. She can pose here and there very well! =)

Thank you girls for making this happen. Appreciate it a lot.
AND!
Thank you Emilia for helping me out being the hairtstylist of the day!
;)

Looking forward for this coming Friday! Dinner with my ex-colleagues the IKEA peeps.

So im meeting kedingz too on the same day (well he also from Ikea mah) ! yeay!!

Miss him alots! lurve u!

*can i dun go???? =( *

IT'S HERE!!

2010-03-30T22:12:00.003+08:00

I WANNA THANK MY CRAZY BUNCH

NADIAH, DEBORAH, JERMEL, JEROY & DARIUS

for the belated birthday present (since it tooks weeks to reach my mail box!).

I'm sooo bloody in LOVE with my NEW brushes!!

THANK YOU GUYS!!!

The 1st week of my attachment =)

2010-03-21T18:52:00.001+08:00

1st Day:

I'm supposed to be at the office at 9am sharp.

Didnt expect the journey to be that fast despite the heavy traffic at PIE.

I reach the door of the office around 8.45am.

No one there.. so i keep on waitting.. and waitting..

9.10am then someone open the door!

It seems that they know nothing about their company attach a student on that day until the supervisor came.

I was attached to this lady name HAYATI.

She's a CAD Designer.

While waitting for them to assign me some work..

i explore the AutoCAD 2010 sofeware (which i learn on year 1 and it is 2006's version).

Not even 15 mins exploring.. they already assign me some work to do.

I was quite blurr as the drawings concern on pipes, cables, lightings etc..

but hey! what do you expect when i was attached to Landscape Engineering Pte Ltd (LEPL)??

So below are one of my a few drawings!

Regarding the working hours, i'm supposed to work from 9am-6pm.

At 530pm, supervisor said i can go back now coz im just a student here.. No need so long..

and i go WOOOHOOO!!!

2nd DAY:

Again i was early despite leaving my house 15 mins later than the first day and heavy traffic!

Continue doing what i do on previous day.

After lunch, i was assign to do something new!

I have to make sure the CAD Designer's drawing is drawn correctly..

It seems easy.. but to check on each and every details...??

me eyes can go: O_o

I love the staff there.. they are supper nice to me.. i expect either one to be very bossy. Thank god all of them are damn nice.. :)

3rd DAY:

Do the same thing again.. and im done with everything before lunch time.

supervisor came and want the staff under M & E engineering to do some photocopy.

There was 2 sets of A4 paper with the thickness like Yellow Page. 1 sets of A3 paper with thickness of half the size of Yellow page and 1 sets of A1 paper.

Not only that, Supervisor want her to print 3 copies for each set!

Almost faint went i heard that.

Since i got nothing to do, i offer to do the photocopy part.

i've got no problem with photocopy-ing the A4 and A3 part.

It's quite a hard work scanning and photocopy-ing A1 size -_-

i swear.. by just doing the photocopy-ing alone..

i didnt realised that the time past so fast!

4th DAY:

Sorting out the pages that i've printed the previous day..

Folding the A1 paper like folding my own cloths seriously.

Ouh! i got the habit of taking of my shoes/heels in the office.

I remember, when i was busy folding the A1 and A3 paper, supervisor came and look at my bare foot.

i go "Oooopss! Shit!"

But then he didnt say anything.

PHEW!

Picture below is my table.

Do you have any idea how i feel?? having my own tables.. with tonnes of drawings..

your own drawings??

ahh syiok man.. :)

5th DAY:

This is when the Supervisor assign me some task begin with:
FATIMAH can pls help draw out this.... (havn't complete his sentence yet)
"FATIN NOT FATIMAH.. :)", ofcz in sacarstic way lol.
That is when i saw him laugh for the 1st time.
I know its not a big deal him laughing rite??
Well.. since the first day i never saw him smile.. laugh.. He's always in stress mode. Scolding his workers over the phone bla.. bla..
So when he did laugh.. i just feel so.. erm.. ok u get what im trying to say rite!

OUH! the supervisor and the BIG BOSS both actually Shankar's uncles!
Shankar is my classmate anyway..
I think i started to love LEPL :)

*he?? him?? im confused*

The Kidz

2010-03-10T19:21:00.005+08:00

Syastra is after all a GIRL. The 'mentel' is there.

Whenever she saw anyone of us makeup-ing, she wanted to do the same.

She love taking pictures too!

The funny thing about her is that whenever there is camera on stanby infront of her, she'll go "WAI.....KE..........NA...............!!!!"

Instead of One.. Two.. Three..

For goodness sake i don't know what language she's using!

This is the reason why i always look forward coming home straight from sch/work etc.

They never fail to make me happy.. Tho irritating at times heh!

Attachment will start in a few days time. I'm scared.

What if i where given a task that i really know nothing about it?

remember?? i hate landscape to the core??

Can say i kind off blame school coz i've inform them, months before they assign us to a company that i wanna INTERIOR FIRM. Not Landscape firm.

Now that i cant do anything. I just take it as God wanna test me in this line.

Dear GOD,

u've choose this path for me.

please guide me along..

i really need ur help..

*what?? u getting married????*

Goodbye......

2010-03-07T22:12:00.004+08:00

Initially, this post will be full of pictures of places that u have not seen before.

Like locker room, rest room, cash office of Ikea.

Thanks to the fan in my room, where it died suddenly by itself while i was surfing the net late mid night, i start to think negative. I've got no idea what i click coz i was too scared that the next day i actually deleted the pics :(

So, to those who read my tweets and those who can access to my facebook account, you already know that yesterday (Saturday, 6th march 2010) was my last day working at Ikea.

Has been working there since 2005 (after N level) for 3 months. Make a come back after my O level. I can say i've gone through a lot since 4 years working there. I still cant believe i can stand handling customers for 4 years. Four years i've been whinning how rude/irritating the customer can be. Hey! i survive!

My last day at work, counter 12 is my counter. Not so busy. Aidil as my partner. Almost all customer behaved except for a few.

The most touching moment was when i say goodbye to my supervisor, Jason Tang.

"Take care of yourself. Do well for your attachment"

We shake hand after that.

As i walk away.. Jason who already at counter 5 and i was 3 counter away from him.

He shout out my name.

"FATIN!!!"

I turned. I thought i left something behind.

"THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING"

I almost broke into tears when i heard that.

Jason Tang. I admit a lot of people hate him. I simply hate the way he talk. Why??

There's a bit of gangster way of talking. Even the way he walk. hehe

He never fails to come over to my counter and ask how am i doing. He like to disturb when am i gonna married with kedingz. He ask a lot about kedingz too. Ouh we talk a lot about American and Singapore Idol and we guess who's next to be eliminated.

"Jason, why your facebook no pictures at all??"

" i've yet to find a right picture to upload. I'm not like you so many pics like as if poeple don't know who u are"

see?? how irritating he can be at times???

No matter how irritating he can be at times, he never fail to give me words of encouragement. When i was at the most bottom. When i don't even dare to open my own counter, he said:

Don't worry Fatin. I trust you. This thing is not your fault. I was right behind at your counter with the security. I saw them. I still remember them but surprisingly i didnt see 'that' scene.

This words encourage me enough not like a few of them who even accuse me being the culprit.

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING JASON TANG ;)

*dont judge a book by its cover*

27th February 2010

2010-03-02T19:15:00.006+08:00

Firstly i wanna tanx to those who wishes me birthday. I didn't expect a lots of people to wish me coz according to @MrsPsychoyan (my twitter fren) i got 50+ people to wish me. Tanx to her for god knows what's her reason to count. Maybe she's too free at that upon of time. haha.

The man actually plan a whole day with me. Initially we plan to have breakfast early in the morning at KFC. Later on, mom and dad said they gonna have breakfast there too. So here we go having breakfast together kedingz treat yeay!

After that we head straight to Jurong Bird Park.

(Click the images for larger view)

I admit the way we dress up is damn not appropriate at all.. what's more with the HOT weather. Heck.. people say 'BLACK IS SEXY' lolz..

Next stop, Suntec Millenia Walk. Planning to redeem my vouchers to make new specs. Didnt notice that i can only use the vouchers on weekdays -.-

So.. we head straight to Singapore Flyers :))

Overall im really enjoy my day.. A day i turned 21!

tanx Kedingz for making things a memorable one. i lurve u!
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1st March=Our 31st Month together =D

I've never ever ride a ludge.

Sentosa we go yeay!

Tanx once again Kedingz.. i dunno how much must i tank you :S

SYASTRA the BIG sister

NATRIANA the small sister =))

*May allah blesss you*

Her Smiles..

2010-02-11T23:17:00.003+08:00

I'M BACK!

Oh well! my blog looks so dead -.-

FYP really tied me up.

Someone is happy coz she got a NEW shoes!

Initially im supposed to shop for myself but Cotton On Kids makes me crazy.

I think i will buy the whole shop for my own children in future. ok. exaggerating.

Sadly i have to make a trip there back coz Nat's feet cant fit onto it.

As for my FYP i'm left with report.

i've got no idea how to start.

what to write.

can i skipp this part??

U WISH!!

bah!

* fight for the love. the word 'fight' scares me *

Syukur

2010-01-25T01:12:00.002+08:00

Ya Allah,

Terima kasih ke atas segala yang telah kamu berikan kepadaku.

Aku hanyalah insan biasa yang tidak lepas dari membuat kesilapan. Aku sedar akan kesilapan ku, malah Tuhan tidak putus-putus membuka pintu rezeki keluarga ku ini.

Keluarga ku bukan org berada. Pendapatan abah ku hanya $1200 sahaja (belom potong cpf). Ibu ku menjaga anak2 jiran untuk membantu abah ku. Cukup untuk perbelanjaan dapur.

Dalam masa kurang seminggu wang pendapatan abah ku habis setelah menolak bill yang perlu.

Yuran sekolah ku pula boleh tahan mahal harganya. $1675 untuk setiap semester.

Aku pernah menukar fikiran untuk memasuki sekolah hanya kerana bagi ku yuran sekolah ku teramat lah mahal. Ibu memarahi ku. Katanya, duit boleh dicari.

Kakak saudara ku pernah berkata yang berbunyi, "Cik Zarah, cukup ke dengan gaji Cik Lili yang kecik tu? Suami saya gaji 2 ribu lebih, kita maseh terkial2"

Alhamdulillah, kita masih boleh hidup.

*thank god*

Hook on Makeup

2010-01-22T22:43:00.003+08:00

I've never like makeup.

I've never put on makeups like how i did now, everyday whenever i went out.

i remember one day mom told me that dad want me to put a bit of powder coz i look 'selekeh'.

And one day.. when i started to get skin problems like acne/pimples, i begin to complain alot.

My face ugly.. My face oily.. bla bla bla...

den one day my mom says something which really hit me in my head.

"Kalau da tau muke tu burok, usaha lar siket cantik kan diri. Ni tidak, klua rumah tak berbedak selekeh"

In english it means, 'If you know u got an ugly face, work out on it"

That's when i started to play with makeup stuff. So if u think i got skin problems bcz of makeups, you are wrong. I put on makeup to cover the unwanted parts.

From there i took Makeup courses.

Now doing freelance makeup.

I LOVE MAKEUP.

*maman giler! he distract me a lot while i typing this post!*

BCA Open house

2010-01-17T01:41:00.002+08:00

Reach as early as 9 plus.

The moment i learnt that the event where held at the basket ball court, it turn me off.

I realised its a good choice after i saw a lots of audience standing around the basket ball court.

The next thing that spoil my mood is when they inform me that my cd cant be played!

Eventually everything turn out well.

The only 3 malay contestant. from left Hakim, Sue n ME =)

Hakim VERY talented. Sue.. she got a soothing voice..

Nadiah, the first to come to support me. lolz.. weee.. =)

After we are done with our inter-class talent time. It's time for me to support the guys for their inter-class soccer. Seriously.. the Myanmar play supper rough. With no valid reason, i cheered when Hakim injured one of the guy.. teheee.

THE DESIGNERS. =)

Design Interior Landscape Year TWO and THREE.. =)

After the long day.. head to meet kedingz. Spend a good quality time with him=)

I LOVE YOU AYANG. ALWAYS.

* "Girl, your voice.." *

Chop her hair!

2010-01-12T23:38:00.003+08:00

My best friend Emylia aka eme finally had a short hair for the first time.

The first time i saw it, i feel like cursing the hairstylist. Skali her mom cut her hair lar..

So i told her to cut shorter at the back and make it bob.

Now then i know she prefer to cut at home instead at the saloon.

AND I CUT HER HAIR!!

BEFORE

AFTER

i'm so not into cutting people's hair. im more to painting poeple's face. bahah! lol.

Glad she loves it. More updates on twitter.

Lesser updates on blogger. Gonna chiong my FYP. less than a month to my due date *faints*

*the bf seems like my scandal and vice versa*

First ever post in 2010

2010-01-05T14:14:00.002+08:00

Holla 2010! Any resolutions? Die2 i must get my car license by this year! no more dragging.

BBDC can be just 5 stops away from my place. Well, there is this saying, the nearer the destination is, the lazier u'll get. true? YES!

So the kidz starts schooling already. My mak nenek here so damn excited. She keep talking bout it. So proud that she LOVES school. I wish i was as excited as her when i was young too! but.. NOO i hate school since young. lolz.

mentel kan???

2009 was a hell to me.

looking forward for the better now on 2010.

Everthing is back to normal. I'm glad everything is fine now.

i have to reject TWO client. *sob* i really wanna make them pretty on their BIG day.

FYP is waitting for me. I need to concentrate more on that!

*r'shp status changed*

Success!

2009-12-22T00:09:00.002+08:00

So! Today early in the morning, met Esah at Chua Chu Kang sation. Borrowed her camera.

ESAH!! i want ur camera can?? pls??? dun need to take bck lar..

ok back to topic! Syarah wants me to makeup for her.

At first, i must say it is quite challenging for me as this is my first time having round shape face.

But hey! im wrong.. Syarah got a very clean and smooth skin that makes my job easier..

It took me almost 3 hours to do the makeup.

yeah. when it comes to makeup i don't like to rush. I'll take my own sweet time to finish it.

For the hair. She want it to be curled. So just follow the flow.

* he blames me ;( *

Hilarious

2009-12-16T22:33:00.002+08:00

ME: You got compass? u know how to use?

Kedingz: Compass?? i don't have, but i recall how to use..it is the one with 2 pin rite?

ME: No lar.. the one which locate North, South, East, West.

Kedingz: Ouh.. the one with degree rite?? i think i know..

ME: Ya Allah!! degree?? it is the one where we find DIRECTION!!

Kedingz: ouh ok i know which one. haha paisey paisey.

HAHA OMG JUST WHICH PART U DONT UNDERSTAND KEDINGZ??

* it's about time *

BUSY BUSY BUSY!!

2009-12-14T18:40:00.004+08:00

Hey!

I'm back!!

have been busy with my Integrated Project (IP). Like now is my 3rd week of doing it. Now then i got some inspiration what to design. So wats my IP project about?? Well, we have to proposed the usage space (given by the school) of MacRitchie. After doing the site analysis i don't think building a spa there is suitable. So end up i gonna design a restaurant.

This project should include aspects related to (fully) Interior, (fully) Landscape OR both Interior and Landscape.

And i choose?? both interior and landscape as this is what the school recommend.

I feel like doing fully interior now. There's SO MUCH things to do for landscape :(

wateva life have to go on rite??

I explored Deb's new lappy.

OMG i seriously in love with her ~~web-cam~~ U-CAM!!

It is so damn clear. Another thing my skin looks so nice in it. Nice as in my makeups look very matte. Enjoy the picz! more at fb as usual :)

*sleeep...sleeep.. sleeeeeppppppppppppppppp*

MAMA

2009-12-07T21:00:00.004+08:00

I miss my MAMA.

Mama was like a 2nd mother to me like how I am a 2nd mother to Irah.

At the point of time when my parents just got me, life was really hard. According to mom, my dad's pay was like $400+ (wic is the same amt i got for my part time job now).

Knowing my family condition, Mama is the one who help my parents in a sense of milk and pampers for me without my parents asking help from her.

Btw Mama; she's my uncle's wife.

I just learned that she's in deep trouble and papa u making things worst. U shouldn't have done that to my mama!! u are so damn cruel.

i really miss her. She send me sms saying she misses me alot. She promise that we will meet soon. I'm looking forward for that mama.

i'll be waitting for you..

looking forward for talent time. I'll be singging well, ofcz a song from Rihanna. Hakim will be the guitarist. Still havn't choose our song yet. We have 3 songs in mind. 1) Umbrella acoustic version. 2) Hate that i love you 3) Take a bow.

Well now it all depends on Hakim. Coz i can sing this 3 song. So lets see which song he's convenient to play with.

*updated 09/12/08*

we have to obey the rules. so i'll be performing ALONE!

bah!

*i like the way u praise me boy*

Great.

2009-12-02T20:11:00.005+08:00

School was great.

Family was great.

boyfreind was great.

freinds was great.

in other words

my life was

GREAT!!

Alhamdullillah..

*pls say YES??*

Change

2009-11-23T21:20:00.002+08:00

Look. this is Natriana when she was 3 months old. her skin tone almost the same as mine.

Now, Natriana at 5 months. She's getting fairer!
oh dear.. but yeah it really suits her chinese looks ;)

okok gtg. Sewa da start at Suriachannel!

*kedingz WAKEUP!! im BORED!!*

Happy 21st Birthday kedingz ku!!

2009-11-22T00:27:00.002+08:00

So.. 18th Nov, this ~~BOY~~ MEN turns 21!!
Ayang.. u still don't look 21 lar sayang..

early in the morning around 10+ am we reach Science Centre and we went to Body World Exhibition. I had a lot of fun there. We spent more then TWO HOURS in there. Kedingz busy reading each and every details written there while me keep staring at the real human body display there.
Yes i'm totally 'jakun'. I'm not like kedingz who bother to read the description all that. bah! I cant help having this imagination of the body suddenly move while i was starring on it! lol.Another thing is i only saw THREE (womens) body the rest is all men! hrrmph! tak gerek!

NEXT

We walk around the whole Science Centre since we bought tickets package of Body World PLUS Science Centre. The next trip i need ONE WHOLE day there, trust me. tak puas..!!!!

Then head to Seoul Garden since before 4pm got student price for ME lol..
After stuffing our stomach with food, watch Paranormal Activity. BEST!!

Lastly head to Cash Studio. Our all time favourite place.
More photos and videos of us at facebook.
im glad he enjoy his day =D

*10k for pick up today!*

Jemimah 21st birthday party

2009-11-15T22:08:00.005+08:00

i was paid to make-up Cili Padi's friend on her 21st birthday.
Can u believe it if i say that was the very first time she put on make-ups??
bahah..
because of that she don't want too much eye-shadow.
NO eye liner on her lower eyes. NO fake lashes. etc..
BUT cili padi and me manage to psycho her on fake lashes all that.
i even ignore her and put a bit more on her eye-shadow and put some glitters.
bah! i just want her to look pretty on her BIG day!

And for the hair i leave it everything to Cili padi.
Cili padi, a potential hairstylist! :)

And it's fun knowing Jem's family. Very kecoh just like my family ;)

BEFORE

AFTER

psst! she pay me extra coz she loves my make-up.

Poor kedingz who came all the way to Aloha Changi to fetch me.

Kedingz get paid from me for that! lol.. nie tak perlu eh.

*i wanna end this*

Transform.

2009-11-02T20:34:00.003+08:00

I want my house to be that SIMPLE. Simple design with not so much stuff in it. i want it to be that spacious as my living room is soo small.

if only i have the $$$..

*long day tomorrow :S*

Tell me she's DAMN CUTE.

2009-10-28T23:04:00.003+08:00

Before that i have to side track a bit.look at the picture below. The left one ofcz my hand, while the other one is kedingz's hand.

Kedingz used to be fairer than me. FAR WAY fairer then me.

look at his hand NOW. ever since he work as a rider.

he turns from white to black literary. ok im exaggerating.

It has been 1 month plus Natriana came into our daily live.

All i can say she grows damn fast.

She starts to give response when i purposely scold her.she'll give that supper sad face.

everytime i sing Disturbia from Rihanna, like,"bam2 bi dam bam2 bi dam bam", she'll smile VERY widely and laugh.yeah she laugh easily nowadays.

And everytime her parents bring her home on weekends i miss her like i wont get to meet her again lolz.

Very concentrate. watching Rihanna live! =)

Kedingz and Nat.

1st time on her walker.now she can walk with the walker damn fast! she's only 4 months old.

another way to distress yourself, stare/look at sleeping babies =)

this is effing true!

Mom say she looks like anak kambing! lolz.. haha

*put ur slp ontop everything*

Back then.. and now..

2009-10-26T12:28:00.003+08:00

(click image for larger view)

I was browsing the pics in my phone.
When i came across this three pics, i decided to compile them together.
Did you see any difference?no?
No as in our body size?? haha lolz..

Well there is a difference!
It's the way we makeup!
for the first pic, which was 3 years ago, when we just leave our secondary school life.
Our knowledge on makeup is only up till the VERY basic one.

As u can see we don't even knw how to conceal our acne scars (well both of us has skin problems since sec 1??)
we don't even know the proper ways to shade our cheeks area to enhance our cheeck bone, shading our nose..
we don't even know how to darken our liners to make it more dramatic.
we don't even knw how to shape our eyebrow.

Now both of us are so call experts already..
Emylia now is working as a part time make-up artist at Mediacorp, while me, doing a freelance makeup for Dinner And Dance, Engagement etc.

And i'm quite sad coz for the time being i have to keep rejecting people as my schedule is damn pack. Schooling on weekdays, working at ikea on weekends.

And whenever i seek help from emylia;
me: eh, ade org nak tunang, aku keje ar, kau make-up kan bole?
she: sorry gal.. i got dating.. lol..

Well.. we need to spend time with our boyfie too rite?? hahah
NO WORRIES once i'm out of Ikea, i can concentrate on my freelance makeup, ! =)
-
I was doing research and i found this:

"The THINNER your eyebrow is, the OLDER u'll look. For YOUNGER looks, make sure
u have a slighty THICKER eyebrows", MichellePan.

This is supper true ok!=)
till here tataz!

*nak ban mien!!*

A girl...

2009-10-25T14:51:00.002+08:00

A girl name Shaffadina Bte Jamil aka Oshin.
A girl who often smile.. very cheerful, hyper and loud.
A girl who is the first one to approach me when i just enter my secondary school life.
Knowing me, a shy gal.. she keeps on talking and talking without fail.
A girl who really love my hair. She never fail to touch my hair and said, "i love ur hair. so smooth and straight. Can we exchange hair??"
and i keep saying that her hair is as rough as 'dawai'. though i really meant it.. but she never take it to heart ;( instead she laugh upon my remarks on her hair.

We lost contact when she change school.
A few years later, i heard she's married. She was quite young at that upon of time.
Next, i heard she just gave birth to a baby boy.
Two years later i found out from Sarah Aqilah's Facebook's profile that she's in ICU.
Very criticall condition. A few days later.. she left the world.. ;(

Ya Allah.. semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat..
dan di tempatkan di golongan org2 yang beriman..
amin.. ya rabball a'lamin..

*dead.that word scare me enough.really*

THE WAIT IS OVA!

2009-10-22T21:43:00.003+08:00

I supper can't wait for this. The good thing having someone u knew working at Chatay is that just give him a call. say out the timing. request for couple seat. that's it.

Kedingz is not a big fan of MJ. ho well.. i'm gonna drag him by all means.

just by watching the trailer i'm emotional. guess i have to stanby lots of tissue. i might cry seriously ;( booohooo!!

Examz are OVA! holidays for 3 weeks. i might need to come back to school for sup-paper. coz i'm pretty much sure i'm gonna fail (hopefully) one module. I seriously screwed my CASM paper. Urgh!

mean time.. concentrate on my driving license. talking about driving. I made a lots of mistakes in the circuit but did pretty well on normal road! and i'm so proud to tell that i finally hit my very first kerb in the circuit. lol! hopefully this is the first and the last!

i received a message at Facebook. Got this unknown girl request me to blog about basic make-up/make-up tips. hmm.. anyone interested?? takkan aku blog psl make-up pasal satu bdk jer kan?? lol..

kk bye.. ;)

*u spoil my day..*

Goodbye Kak Shaz!

2009-10-18T01:29:00.003+08:00

After postpone-ing a few times, call off the wedding last year.
finally kak shaz is maried =)
alhamdulillah.. kalau da jodoh.. tak ke mana.. btol tak?
now she 's officially belongs to someone.
and she move out aldy ;(
now i can't borrow her clothing, bag, shoes, etc..
haiyah...

btw kak shaz request for WHITE.
tho i feel a bit weird. coz i have this mindset white means attend funeral.
i'm so sorry kak shaz hehe.. Eventually i did follow her theme what...
mom's do the cooking..

i'm quite sad. Kak Shaz actually booked my dad, the video man, on her solemnization session.
but dad have to cancel it at the VERY LAST MINUTE coz my dad's boss DIE2 wants my dad to stay and do overtime. he just dun wanna release my dad lar! fuck rite?? pardon me, i, as a gal, wants my 'big and special' day to be recorded for lifetime memories. when this happen.. i'm just disappointed lor.. grrr..!!!

and this is what u call NICE MAKE-UP! better than the kak siti's one rite?

u r so gorgeous kak shaz!

*then don't meet lor.. *

Im back!

2009-10-12T18:11:00.008+08:00

Have been busy with assignments, exams.. urgh..

mean time pics below shows what's happening during my absence here.

The BCA mates Raya-ing at my house.My mom cooked for them Nasi Briyani and they enjoy my moms cooking soo much.

And i really salute Deborah and Jermel being so ON to wear baju kurung =)

wait maybe i salute Deborah only cz Jermel change it to t-shirt after a while.

Next, to cili padi's crib. Omg we chat a lot ok. i miss her soo much =(

lepas rindu =)

Finally i get to go raya visitting with my sec sch mates. The Zhenghua-ians.

last of all on Sunday went to Kak Siti's wedding.

i'm very dissapointed with the make-up like seriously.

the moment i looked at her make-up i feel like washing her face and i do the make-up.

the eye-shadow.. so saddening ;(

naseb overall ok. but im still not satisfied with the eyeshadow.

Sadeening rite the make-up?

Kak Siti got a beautiful big eyes.. i'll surely make it a nice one IF im the one who do the make-up lar. pardon me i just can't stand it seeing a bride with bad make-up on their BIG days!

make-up tips:

do not put white eye-shadow around your eyes (its not that u cant use it around ur eyes at all, A BIT will do. dont make it too intense. its ugly) whats more if the eye-shadow around ur eyes is white+shimmering.

don't worry. i got this cert. so trust me ok??can?

~~* i fucking hate u lar gal!!! *~~

Notty!

2009-10-02T22:17:00.004+08:00

My result a bit different as my hair is side parting. Damn it. i look retarded.

Jermel, almost looks normal, but she didnt realised the eyebrow is damn closed!

We where caught camwhore-ing instead of doing our stuff...

"YOU ALL KNOW WHEN IS THE DATE DUE OR NOT..??................"

and she carry on.. and on.. hahah!

we r such a bitch at class heh!

SORRY CHER!!

*god pls change their mind*

Still Raya-ing.

2009-09-27T23:36:00.006+08:00

It's already the 2nd week of raya. Trust me i'm still NOT done with it.
mom's side: 13 adik beradik.
dad's side: 6 adik beradik (aje?lol)

basically today we went visitting to kedingz's crib.
the rest, mostly we cover dad's side.

pics below credit to my uncle; Mamang Cun. (dun ask me y i call him dat :-S)

mom: mcm mane kenyang pun kite.. kasi jer ayam goreng.. org mesti makan.. (with the makcik2 tone) lol!

bik ana, Mamang Cun's wife.

like finally??

Next, i seriously think my dad SLACK nak mampos!

why??

look at the pic below:

This is like just now. He claims that the purple pants not dry yet.

so mom asked him to wear jeans. BUT look, the colour so the tak matching kan?

tsk3...

This is the 1st day of raya! no proper shoes/capal or what.

He wear normal slippers. Proudly bought at Ikea =)

slack giler kan?? haiz.. abah.. abah.. so funny lar u!

*appreciate that short time we had*

I WISH............

2009-09-22T22:09:00.002+08:00

i can webcam-ing with kedingz like last time.
there'll be no more coughing and running nose.
i can talk to him like we used to.
i can have my Mee Ban Mien by tomorrow?
i have the power to complete my assignments in seconds.

*hate u*

1st Syawal =)

2009-09-20T23:25:00.003+08:00

Our first day of hari raya. more pictures has been uploaded at fb. im tiiired.. :(
bye!

*the guy in purple.u look cute baby!*

Promise.

2009-09-18T12:02:00.002+08:00

Goodbye Long hair!

Welcome short hair =)

i knw kedingz badly want me to keep long hair. i promise, after this i'll keep long hair.

sesungguhnya, aku da puas rase rambot pendek =)

ok deal?k set!

*mobile twitter not working =(*

4 more days =)

2009-09-15T23:45:00.002+08:00

I skipped sch for two days just to help mom make pineapple tarts (kueh tart).
its been only two days and i miss my class mates :(
Nadiah, Deborah, Jermel, Jeroy, Darius.. I MISS U GUYS!!
-

trust me. my mom depend too much on me on making kueh tarts that she can't clipped the tarts like she used to! gosh! padahal die lar yg ajar aku sepit.

i'm tired.

my mom will do the baking.

bye..

*i really dun understand u*

Slengeh.

2009-09-12T00:38:00.003+08:00

scene ONE

we just had a small fight. Both of us was at BBDC. Top up some money to my account. He confidently put HIS nets card into the slot and confidently enter MY pin number. i was still angry with him at that upon of time, but seeing his action makes me laugh. hahhhahaha...

scene TWO

going back to the carpark. was searching for his bike. when i found it, i just stood behind his bike and waitting for him to open the box so i can put my stuff in. guess wat.. he confidently walk all the way straight without realising i've stopped.

"oi! where are u going??", while pointing at his bike. hahahaha

scene THREE

We saw someone's bike with the keys attached to the box. So kedingz take away the key and leave a note on that person's bike: your key is with me. call me at 8288...... Halfway watching our movie, the owner of the bike called. so we tell them to wait as we are not done with our movie.

When we managed to meet the owner. Kedingz ask for their insurance wateva shit. just to make sure that key was given to the right person. After checking, confirmed its the owner of the bike,

kedingz: ok can *walk away*
me: *looking at him with blurr face* Have u given them the keys?? *saw the owner face also blurr*
kedingz: *said confidently, raised voice sumore* DAH.....

in just a few second he like "Eh???" while rubbing his pocket.

"alamak belom lar..paisey2". finally he returned it back to the owner, lol.

*im enjoying it*

Rafi's daughter.

2009-09-08T21:16:00.002+08:00

I think she loves singging too. lol

Once in a while Rafi will send either one of her daughter or both to my house. I was told today, his wife was saying after her maternity leave end, she want us to take care of their children. I'm really SHOCKED. Until now, i still can't believe it. Ye lar.. Rafi is my ex. I repeat, EX boyfriend. And here i am having his daughters at my house. hahah pike2 balek kelakar kan?

Like i said earlier on twitter. Rafi and I may don't have anything special, but our friendship remains. haiz.. looking at him with two babies.. i feel like having one.. hah! kedingz marry me.. lol

*i miss u lar....*

freaking Malay customers.

2009-09-06T00:26:00.008+08:00

As hari raya is around the corner, im not surprise to see most of the malays came n shop.
what really make me pissed, Malay Aunties and Uncles was super annoying lor!
they make a big fuss on plastic bag. Usually the younger one very on.

"plastic bag charge?anything lar.. 10 cent only"

scene ONE

this pakcik bought two freaking bulb. when told plastic bag charged. He's trying to be very 'speaking london tak menjadi'. As if his english is good.

"huh?charged?this is RIDICULOUS! too much! how am i gonna carry without plastic bag?"

STUPID! First, u carry ur freaking TWO bulbs from lighting department ALL the way to my counter with ur HAND. no trolley, no basket, nothing. Second, what's the use of having hands?? As if ur bulb is bloody big and bulky??

scene TWO

wife: Never mind. we will hand carry our item
husband: why must u charge us plastic bag?
me: saving the environment. we encourage customers to bring their own bag.
husband: RUBBISH! Ikea just wanna make more money. that's why u charge us.
me: no. the money will go to FUNDING.
husband: *throw nets card to make payment*

F! i hate it when people throw cards/money! and i don't even bother to even say THANK YOU at the end of his transaction.

scene THREE

"Melampau nyer charge plastic. padan lah Ikea senyap sekarang. tgk ar tk lame lagi tutop!"

padahal queue dari pagi non-stop panjang sampai ke malam.

*cramp :S*

Happy 6th birthday IRAH!!

2009-08-31T23:31:00.002+08:00

Again.. whenever she turn a year older.. she remind me of the time when i FIRST take care of her. When she was only a month old! and now she aldy 6 years old?? can u pls stop growing will u?? booohooo!!

My Princess =)

Mummy, IRAH and Daddy =)

She love the bag kedingz bought for her.
"Awwww! i like the bag so much!"
and her ibu said,"U don't play2 using this bag ha... this bag can use for Raya"
nak tau kenapa mak dia ckp mcm tu?psl mak nenek Irah nie suke maen 'mak mak'
kalau da maen 'mak mak' beg org smue die kebas! lol.

And i wanna tanx my mom for cooking a lot today!
Nasi Ayam and Mee Siam best!

mom: irah, this year nenek tak kasi present ok.
irah: alar.. tkpe lar nenek.. nenek kasi duit jer...

LOL!! everyone burst laughing upon hearing her saying that!
-

as usual every 1st day of every month means a lot to me=)
HAPPY 25 months to FatinMaman aka BoncitzKedingz =D
love u lots..
muackz..!

*when u are ready tell me*

Short

2009-08-30T22:54:00.009+08:00

In one week time i'll get my pay.
Looking forward to it cz i wanna cut cut cut my long hair. rimas.
mom confirm 100% chop not happy if i cut this short.
i believe sooner or later she'll ok with it.
bila lagi mau rase rambot pendek betol tk?
anyways.. hair grows.. i can always grow my hair back rite? :)

*to YOU i'm sorry :(*

4 years ago..

2009-08-25T23:14:00.007+08:00

Did u saw any familiar faces here?? heheh!
omg! i found this pic from my ex-trainning vocal teacher's profile on FB. Cik Mokhtar lol..!
Me still with my kentalan hairstyle. super long bah! That's ME four years ago!
Firuz still super tembamz. He's damn skinny now. Maklom lar da NS.
i reaally miss those time -_-

-

i really pity kedingz.
he got TWO jobs now. why he take TWO jobs? well for fun. really.
Tomorrow he'll be working at Ikea from 10am- 715pm.
Then went for his 2nd job form 8pm-2am. bleargh! :S
hopefully he can handle this. Actually he CAN handle this. It is just me who worried too much on him.

aaarrgh.. i hate this feeling can...???

*i've been waitting for ur call*

Tke it away RIHANNA! =D

2009-08-23T15:07:00.003+08:00

tell me that RIHANNA is HOT!! omg i love her alot!

Rihanna's hairstyle sooooon.... ;)

i'm here at home on Sunday! yeay! basically i request working once a week so i can concentrate more in completing my assignments. It is not officially approved though.

it's Ramadhan!! happy fasting month everyone =)

having Roti Kirai for buka later.. yummy!

ouh ya.. was watching malaysia channel, TV 1 (i think so! if not TV 2 lol). The programme was talking about Aliff Aziz who will come out with a new album. got this part where the host saying that Aliff Aziz will be going for his National Service (NS) soon.

And the host react, " Hai...Singapura pun ade National Service ke?"

omg! like wat the..... -_- Singapore da berzaman lar ade National Service.

*i wish he's here to join us*

Did u know her that well?

2009-08-19T17:55:00.003+08:00

I feel damn touch. touched to the max upon seeing this!
Emylia knows me that well??
if you where to ask me.. maybe i can list out 3!
coz both of us simply LOVE makeup, singging and Long John Silver!!! bah!
oh man i just feel like i'm a BAD buddy just bcz i dunno her well..
Emylia pls dun be angry.. :S
i LOVE YOU!

*mr J.. i know ur secrets..nyeahahah (evil laugh)*

Babies............

2009-08-18T22:57:00.004+08:00

Yesterday went over to Nizam's place to visit his new born baby GIRL.
welcome to the world Masqairah Ufaerah (sumpah name die panjang btol nta btol ke tk name nie!)

Nizam's princess. da dua anak kau zam.. kedingz marry me.. LOL..

did u recognize who is in the pic above?
yeah! it is my mak nenek IRAH!!
super cute right??i miss those time.
the time when she still having a double-chin.
tembamz nak mampos.
sometimes i wish u'll never grow...

*i'm tired of lying.i dun wanna lie in the first place.but u make me :(*

New Girlfriend

2009-08-11T16:56:00.002+08:00

Yes. My deary kedingz got a new girlfriend :(
His new gf is his new BIKE. lol.

One of my friend asked, "you must be proud having a bf who have a bike right?"
First of all i don't get what she trying to say.
I'm not really proud of it seriously. I just dun have the 'proud' feelings when i learned he bought the bike.

The reason is that we can't chit chat like how we used to chit chat in the bus. I can't leaned my head on his shoulder like i used to in the bus. I can't sleep on bike like how i used to sleep in the bus. u get what i mean?

if i have the power to control kedingz life. I wont allow him to buy the bike.
on the brighter side.. i'm happy when he's happy =)

*hope it doesn't repeat*

1st of August 2009

2009-08-04T17:08:00.002+08:00

Since last Friday my life has been very busy. My cousin had a 'cukur rambot' event for their new born baby. My mom was given the responsibility to cook for the special event.
since i've got BIG family. The event was held at the void deck instead of at their house itself.

i wanna say big THANK YOU to:

my kedingz. u help my mom A LOT.. (psst my aunt praise him alot ok! so proud of u)

Nizam, Moley and Nasa. (tho they keep cabot in between)

Without them, i don't know what's gonna happen whats more with mom's side attitude.
THANX once again.

US. too bad we are here on our 2nd anni. but i did have fun =)
and ya, pardon me my hair. just finished showering lar. no time to comb my hair -_-

their new born baby. AFEEQ AMANI.

finally after 4yrs of marriage (or isit 5yrs im not sure). Abg syahril together with wifey and they new born son.

*we are indeed 2 years now.but that doesn't mean i've known him so well.and so do he*

New Auditorium

2009-07-29T22:35:00.005+08:00

Last Monday.. during my lecture.. that was the first time i went into the auditorium.
finally.. after so many months renovating..

i pretty much love the ceiling. And i preferred the new lighting..

the walls at the back not much change. It is used to be in maroon colour.

i must say the beige colour now makes the the auditorium looks more spacious though i preferred the previous maroon colour. And the chair cum mini table. very comfortable.

there used to be a platform there.. they shouldn't have remove it lor..

just two things to describe when you are in the auditorium.

SLEEPY

always get DISTRACTED...

rite3???

*forget me and move on*

My Toy..

2009-07-26T19:56:00.004+08:00

The first time i get hold onto my Ipod touch was last year..
i got it for free when i sign up for singtel broadband..
i remembered clearly..
Rizal and kedingz accompanied me allllll the way to the east just to collect this ipod touch.

since that particular person forever conquer the lappy..
24/7 msn-ing..
i surf the net while lying on the bed..

besides watching video and listen to my (only) rihanna songs..

i tweet and read other's tweets too! tweeting is just soo FUN! u can see my tweeter updates on the right.

i play games here..

facebook-ing...

check my emails here..

and blog hopping too!!!

everything i do it while lying on the bed.. yes! this is the reason y i rarely used my lappy!

Tell me that MJ's first son; Prince Michael Jackson I is DAMN cute!! watched the way he talk! he's just 3 years old back then (now he is 12 yrs old)

Sat:

Last two days of sales. not bad queue non-stop. supposed to closed counter at 10 but Kak M keep saying ,"wait ar.. wait ar.." and finally closed counter at 1040..

at the end of the day i felt so weak. The muscles on my arm to be precise.. damn aching omg! when i take a look at my Z-report.. i actually made 399 transaction! *faint* one more customer and i served 400 customers in 8hrs40mins! no wonder soo aching.

Today:

went back early at 530=) susah tau dpt balek cpt! just nice i closed counter the queue super long hahah!! lucky kak Hanisah take over me early =)

ok bye!

*1st august=our 2nd annivesary*

CRAZY!!!

2009-07-19T22:18:00.003+08:00

As usual IKEA sale was C.R.A.Z.Y!!
Sat was at counter 3. The extreme right counter. The queue was non-stop can..
grrrr...!!!

And today, i was at counter 10!
around 11am the queue was damn long. what's more with only 4 counter opened!
customer starts to show tantrum cz my queue is not moving..
not bcz of me serve customer too slow..
but i have problems handling with customer like:
forgot Pin number, credit card keep appeared "decline"/"do not honour", keep arguing about the price of the item.. blabla..

and Mr J come to the rescue..
J: ok fatin! let me serve customer and clear this long queue ok. (dammit u also think im slow too isit?grr~nvm)

the funny part is when he just started serving, this customer paid by credit card. While packing customer's item, i saw Mr J keep pressing the amount and 'clear' repeatedly.. i thought the credit card machine have problem or what.. then suddenly..

J: Fatin! how to press $100.90??

ok i bet my colleagues who's reading this post confirm laugh their ass out! c'mon man! u are the supervisor there.. and u ask that kind of question to me??? hahaha!!!!
HE's just CUTE lar...

there we go.. i ask customer whether they want plastic bag.. he do the scanning and collect payment.. i pack..

and oh ya! i have to run in and out! whenever he saw item with NO barcode.
"FATIN!!! go inside! no barcode..!!"
amboi.. sedap nyer die perintah.. heheh pakkal kau supervisor aku..
actually its FUN working in that kind of situation. really!!
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i'm having high fever... running nose.. cough.. body aching...
i thought i'm having IT.. but don't think so.. coz no sore throat! =)

Tomorrow is Monday! that's mean.. i have to go to school.. ouh ya did i mention i starts to LOVE school?? weird?? i know. If last time i'm looking forward for weekends.. now i'm looking forward for weekdays..!! AARRRGHH.... i'm weird.. there's "something" that really motivate me to school i must say heh! =)

*no celebration.. *

Heyya!

2009-07-14T21:03:00.003+08:00

So happy that Sarah Aqilah is back for Wildcard round! wee!! support u babe!
it has been only 3rd week of school and my assignments keep coming in.. =(
Note for myself. no more slacking! this is my 3rd year.. get that into your head fatin!
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and Abang Syahril will be having majlis cukur rambut for his new born baby boy on the 1st of August!!
i REPEAT, 1st of August, 2009!!!
its our 2nd annivesary.. =(
there's no way i can cabot from this family event!
nvm we can always celebrate it later rite??
Booo!!!!
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with that i'll end this post with this; my all time favourite song.
=)

*i love u MJ*

It's all about Michael Jackson.

2009-07-08T18:00:00.002+08:00

Each and every day i never fail to search for MJ's stories. like seriously.
After reading this article.. i feel like killing this boy's family for making MJ suffer soo much!
And i really really seriously hoping that whateva was stated in this article, is TRUE.

im awake the whole night just to watched MJ's tribute.
i cried.. and cried.. and cried.. and still can't believe it he's gone ;(

;(

*it's not the same anymore*

I'm back!

2009-07-06T23:25:00.002+08:00

yes i know i've been MIA-ing for almost a week heh!
just reboot my lappy so usually i spent my time updating the windows updates!
ok now i'll do a quick updates on myself.

We are 23 months on 1st July =) had a great great time with him =D

just cleaned my LCD screen and keyboard. before that my keyboard very the brownish ok.

isit Tues or Wed.. we had 2 hours of lunch break. so here we are!

credit to Deborah hehehe... the last time i had this was primary school ok!

*i'm the most stupidest person in this whole world =(*

It really Affect ME.

2009-06-30T18:22:00.002+08:00

Call me i'm crazy.. call me nuts..
but try to believe me till NOW i'm still not over MJ's death =(
since i was in kindergarten, my dad bought MJ's concert and music video Cds.
that's how i know ENGLISH song for goodness sake!
i remembered i keep repeating watching it. countless time i must say.
till i moved house to Bukit Panjang that the Cds is nowhere to be found =(

when i watched this video below i cried.
In this video u can know how he was treated when he was child.
reminds me of my strict parents.
how his skin change from black to white. NOT because of skin bleaching or watsoever BUT bcz of a skin disease called vitiligo, which he really can't avoid it. (remind me of someone)
and many more..
if u cried or atleast sad.. u feel me babe =(

his funeral will take place tomorrow 010709 =(

*u'll always in my heart*

NOTE to myself.

2009-06-26T20:04:00.002+08:00

I am so used to having a girl/women at home (excluding my dad, the one and only man at home).
Ever since my nephew, Molly stayed with me (bcz of some personal reason) there's something which i need to remind myself!

+ tapao food for him!
i seriously forgot that now he stay with me that i tapao food everyone but not him!

+ i seriously have to stop berkemban!
ok firstly berkemban means u wrapped ur whole body with towels (only!) after shower. Since there's only my mom, kak shaz, kak ogy, irah, my sis and ME (ALL gals) at home i berkemban very often. hahaha! i almost when out of the toilet berkemban ok! tak manis dipandang lelaki..

ok that's it for now.. i'm sure there's more to come in future hahaha!!

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i'm sure everyone of u knows about Micahel Jackson or Mikhaeel's death..
semoga rohnya ditempatkan digolongan org2 yg beriman amin...
and to those who still wondering is MJ a muslim?
he is a muslim.. he converted last year i think. around november.
tk pecaya google lar appe lagi lol..

*we turning 23rd months in matters of days =)*

Her.

2009-06-25T00:44:00.003+08:00

I don't understand why..
when i've put the past behind me..
not to think back how u treat me..
put it as far as possible..

and when i treat u normally.. sincerely..
i repeat sincerely...
u've said my action is not sincere..
not only that..
some people even bo-layan.

so isit wrong for me to be nice to people??
or i shouldn't even be nice to people in the first place?

that's it.. from now on..
treat me nicely..
i'll treat u nicely..
treat me like shit..
i won't give you any more chances..
never ever..i'll not give in..

:(

*u are such a bitch /slut/sundal !!*

Welcome back (again) Molly!!

2009-06-23T20:05:00.002+08:00

Fetched my nephew, Molly at the airport today. met Susanti and Usop at Terminal 2.

He's finally back here permanently. He wished that he don't need to come back here. Looks like he really enjoy life at Thailand wahahaa!! ape tak 24/7 enjoy.. lol...

And i seriously in love with Susanti's hair can?? Omg! cool man..

And this too.. omg! both done at Thailand. By the way this is Usop. Susanti's bf.

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I MISS HIM.....

BADLY MISS HIM................ :(

*no matter how u express ur feelings to him.if he LOVE u.he'll find u*

Happy =D

2009-06-17T14:28:00.005+08:00

Would you wanna date this gal above? She's sweet huh? if only i'm a guy.. haha..

The whole day was such a boredom. Was shocked to see my dad at home once i'm awake.
So i decided to fetched kedingz at work since i'm too bored and miss him soo much. We chat for awhile and head home.

Yesterday i beg kedingz like seriously beg like im very desperate. Knowing he already make a decision which is NO.

In the bus, "ayang.. pls..."
"NO"
walking at the bridge, "ayang.. for my sake pls....:("
"NO"
at the staircase, "AYANG..." (almost cried already)
"ok lar for your sake k syg.."

wah....straight away i hugged him like there's no tomorrow....!

thanks kedingz!
i love you sooo sooo much!!

*u are too much! i hate u!*

My Mak Nenek Irah.

2009-06-15T18:49:00.003+08:00

Another video of her:

Weekend at work.

2009-06-14T20:30:00.004+08:00

Sat
Ida Faridah Omar was my neighbour at work. At the end of the day was quite fun.
Left a few customer. Our counter was slightly to the left. So customer didn't notice us.
Left THREE customer inside. Still taking their on sweet time though we already announced, "Our shop is closing" half an hour ago!

ida: fatin. i serve this customer u help me pack!
me: ok go! u scan fast2.. i pack..

And for once i saw Ida scanned item very fast. so proud of her! good job Ida!!
Was soo semangat doing our work.. halfway...
"Fatin.. this candle no barcode!!"

I was like shit..!! then i give her some tips! *winks* that tips pun i learned from Rizal aka Zallo my ex-colleague teeheee........ after serving last two customers, Kak Ana closed our counter! And Ridwan do the job waitting the last customers.. heh!

Sun
Today was my unlucky day... it's the time of the month and the cramp really really makes me wanna aaaarrghhh... i don't know how to explain. I feel like having a black out. So i closed counter and went to the toilet.. feel ok already.. then the cramp came and attack me.. omg! once i get up.. the pain was damn intense. And i stay in the toilet for like an hour plus. while waitting for the panadol from cili padi.

when i am in great pain all i think was i want medicine that can atleast ease the pain. So if u ask me why i didn't inform the superior.. yeah that's the answer. I can't think of anything at that moment. Tanx to my cramp i work less than 4 hours. tsk! waisted. =(

*ciKedingz i need ur hugs =(*

Finally

2009-06-10T23:01:00.003+08:00

Today..
ciKedingz finally..
PASSED his..
TP...
congrats ayang....

get your bike soon ayang..! i can't wait! =) and yeah we had a small celebration since he passed his TP.. karaoke-ing at cash studio (our favourite place) for 5 fucking hours!! haha puas hati babe!!

*i'm a happy gal =D*

After that incident..

2009-06-08T21:03:00.003+08:00

After that incident... Yesterday was the first time i opened counter.
i'm still phobia.. the moment i reached office.. i cried..
the moment i'm out of office... i cried..
the moment one of the security asked, "eh??u are the one..............."
(before he could finish his sentence i nod my head)
i cried.

the moment i reached at the counter i cried again..
Jason, my supervisor came.. he console me..
he assure me that i'm not at fault.

how can i not be at fault when i looked soo stupid in that scene? (guess ALL my colleagues knew bout this)

and Jason assure me again. when that incident happen he was actually standing right behind my counter. He saw everything, from the part 'she' came to my counter until 'she' leave my counter ACCEPT 'that' incident.

Jason brings back my confident.. i do everything very slowly.... and a few hours later..
i get to my on speed..
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i miss my cikedingz very much..
he was such a good listener when i'm super down..
ouh ya! he help me pay $106 for my hp bills..
u are really there for me when i really really need u..
i can't ask for more...
love u..
muackz!

* i seriouzly can't believe it M n J*

Scared.

2009-06-06T17:39:00.003+08:00

Last Thursday.. was listening to Misteri Jam 12. DJ KC said something which makes me really scared. worst than scared.. i just can't describe my feelings.

On 12th Dec 2012.. researched has been done. the world is already far too old. all planets will bang onto each other which cause this world to be destroy..destroyed so badly and became ashes..

that news terrified me enough...

not counting what has happened in my life..
terrible thing happen..
it'll spread soon..
and i just have to bare with it..

bare with pple asking me questions..
oh dear.. i already imagine what's gonna happen ahead me..

i'm phobia now.. but trying my very best to overcome my phobia..
i believe i can do it..

*when u said u believe me.. i knew u said it for the sake to make me feel better.the fact is NO ONE believe me ;(*

Again at WORK.

2009-06-02T00:03:00.003+08:00

Sat
supposed to start work at 11am but start at 12pm instead. was at counter 13. most of the customers when to Ridwan's counter as my counter was hidden against the BIG pillars. Not so many customers. Very slack. On that day i made 370 transaction.

Sun
Start work at 2pm.Very packed! i think half of the customer should come on Sat. Very tiring though i was at counter 14 (not that really at the center), still the queue NON-STOP.
what puzzled me is that i made exactly 300 transaction!! yes, i know, i just said the queue non-stop. Whereas i served more customers on the 'slack' day... hmmmm......

Customers bought a few plants.
me: do you need plastic bag? 10cnt for plastic bag.
customer: WHAT???!!! U CHARGED???!! LIKE THAT I DON'T WANT!!!
and i continue stick the paid sticker onto the plant thinking that he don't want to purchase a bag. Skali when i was about to turn to collect payment.. He's NOT THERE!!
Nabey! i was cheated by him man! i really thought he don't want to purchase the plastic bag but actually he don't want both plastic bag and plants.. lol..
in the end i found out he's standing behind my counter with folding arms looking soo pissed and stared at me!
WATEVA.. not my fault anyway.. nabey..!

we already turned 22 months! =D
and i love each and every moment i had with u cikedingz!

*omg! this WED??*

If i can have U................

2009-05-30T00:28:00.006+08:00

i LOVE the guy in the picture below =)
ouh?? u don't know who is that?
tsk3....

okok.. now u know this guy?? YES! marvelous! it's ADI RAHMAN!!! =D
cute kan?? cute kan?? cute kan???
untung sape dpt die.. haiz.. fatin stop it..!

BUT......this ciKEDINGZ here will always be in my heart no matter how i am crazy over adi rahman..
What if one day Adi rahman came into my life?
Ouh man..... i'll think of that when it really happen to me! lol..
ok aku merepek..
i like adi rahman..
and i LOVE kedingz!
hahahahah!!!

*think of ur status first ok*

Online Shop.

2009-05-29T00:29:00.004+08:00

So far two of my friend has their own online shop..
And currently i just knew that Feedza O has an online shop too..
do drop by ok ladies.. guys too.. do drop buy and surprise your beloved galfren!! heh!
just click onto the image below and it'll direct u to Smitten Suzy's webbie =D

OR

u may visit here too: BISKOTT JACOBS

*SF's online boutique is my favourite =D*

When u are bored............

2009-05-27T13:41:00.004+08:00

When your parents are not at home.. and u are dead bored..
the pictures below is the result.. we make-up and camwhore-ing..
feeling2 lar kan.. more pics has been uploaded on facebook..

She pose very well huh?

and i miss my cikedingz soo much!
and i love him too! =D

*die die i must do well for my suppp paper! tsk!*